Friday, October 8, 2010

For what? So what?

Stuck for 15 minutes trying to figure out what to write. I don't want to write just for the sake of keeping my blog alive. Usually i write because i wanted to, that i have something in mind i wanted to share with whomever it is out there that are interested to read my blog.

Just some short updates before i proceed. I have been working for almost 5 months, another 9 days to go to be exact. What i learned? I learned that working life is just a game. A game that you are trying to win at the end of the day. The definition of 'win' being able to climb up to the top of the hierarchy. Constantly feeling you are on the way, and that you salary are constantly being revised, or that you are receiving extra rewards from time to time, and that are what will keep me motivated to work.

What if i able to do that? Should i give up my dream and just continue working? Work, work and work? Play the game of work? I scare i get too comfortable with what i'm going to receive. I want to be more than that yet i scare i will feel contented. But then again, so what i get all the physical things i wanted? Am i going to be happier? I don't know. What about family? What about life itself? Ahh... stop talking about this already. It won't change a thing for me right now. I know i'm just going to continue doing what i do now. Probably because i got nothing else to do already.

I guess i am kind of lost right now. Am i?

Some people say if they don't blog most probably is because their lives are going pretty well. That is why no complain, no unhappiness, and so nothing much to tell. For those who have problems, they wan to talk it out in order for them to feel better. I think i belong to the latter one. I'm just not the kind of people who will brag about their happiness. Maybe because i don't want others to feel like i am showing off. Or perhaps i should considering a change regardless of how others might think as long as i'm happy.

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