Brunch, Dinner and Supper

My Diet of The Day

Milo mixed with Nutrifresh + 5 pieces of Jacob's Hi-fibre Biscuits

Plain Porridge + Sliced Pork

Pineapple Juice

Juices of 1 Lemon, 1 Carrot, and 1 Green Apple mixed together

1 Kiwi Fruit

That's all i ate today. My brunch, dinner and supper. Diet of my own creation. Lolzz...

State of Mind

 We live in a world where we are exposed to many situations. These situations will make you feel something, the thing which we called feeling. 

This feeling will make you experience all the ups and downs in life, all the joy and tears, all the excitement and boredom, all the inferiority and superiority, and all the other more complicated ones. These are caused by some kind of chemical compounds released by our body. Due to these stuffs we enjoy or suffer from something.

We like feelings that are positive, that make you feel great. The problem is that we also have to deal with the negative ones. Like me i used to take too much time wandering in a negative state of mind. I thought to myself "how can my life be so bad? Why do i lost to others? Why after i tried so hard i still lose. Why?" That's all i was thinking about.

I used to try very hard to overcome these feelings. As i grow older i became more skillful. I realized all this are actually just a state of mind. It is actually manageable. 

First thing is you must able to calm down and think about the situation from a further perspective. Don't let yourself drown in that situation. Imagine yourself actually standing very far away from the situation, so that you could suffer less impact. The further the better. Always ask yourself this question when you are down or when you think you are going to be down, "How bad could it be? It's nothing."

Just remember that you are being manipulated to feel this way. By whom? By God who created human. It is just an effect, a chemical reaction. Keep your mind clear. Believe in yourself that life will be so much better soon. At the same time strive for what you want to achieve in life and be patient.

I believe we can choose what we want to feel. It's our life, it's our body, it's our mind, and i believe we get to choose how we want it to be. Enjoy the positive ones and dilute the negative ones.

It is just a STATE OF MIND and you can control it!

Lost

Today... I can choose to go home at 5.30pm, but i didn't. I don't feel like going home. It got me started to think, why don't i wan to go home?

I realized that working late is part of me already. I wanted to stay longer though i got nothing else to do. Perhaps part of the reasons is i got nothing better to do also other than work. Perhaps i love my job? That i should just keep on working? This is the life i wanted to be? No no no no......

What i want actually?

Love Story meets Viva La Vida

Soul of Motion

I want to get one of this...

It is so pretty! I have been always dreaming about having a RX-8. This is actually the Mazda Shinari instead of RX-9 as it is titled in this video. Anyhow, It is just stunning!

For what? So what?

Stuck for 15 minutes trying to figure out what to write. I don't want to write just for the sake of keeping my blog alive. Usually i write because i wanted to, that i have something in mind i wanted to share with whomever it is out there that are interested to read my blog.

Just some short updates before i proceed. I have been working for almost 5 months, another 9 days to go to be exact. What i learned? I learned that working life is just a game. A game that you are trying to win at the end of the day. The definition of 'win' being able to climb up to the top of the hierarchy. Constantly feeling you are on the way, and that you salary are constantly being revised, or that you are receiving extra rewards from time to time, and that are what will keep me motivated to work.

What if i able to do that? Should i give up my dream and just continue working? Work, work and work? Play the game of work? I scare i get too comfortable with what i'm going to receive. I want to be more than that yet i scare i will feel contented. But then again, so what i get all the physical things i wanted? Am i going to be happier? I don't know. What about family? What about life itself? Ahh... stop talking about this already. It won't change a thing for me right now. I know i'm just going to continue doing what i do now. Probably because i got nothing else to do already.

I guess i am kind of lost right now. Am i?

Some people say if they don't blog most probably is because their lives are going pretty well. That is why no complain, no unhappiness, and so nothing much to tell. For those who have problems, they wan to talk it out in order for them to feel better. I think i belong to the latter one. I'm just not the kind of people who will brag about their happiness. Maybe because i don't want others to feel like i am showing off. Or perhaps i should considering a change regardless of how others might think as long as i'm happy.