Reborn of a Sad Man...

Sad man has chose to restructure his thought... How would he become then...?

Friends of him... please help him add colors to his life...

Back...

I'm back... don't know how to explain this... i myself also confused by myself... contradicting myself... I will just continue walking and see what is ahead of me next...

The End of The "Thoughts of a LGM Drummer"

After all that has happened... it is time to put an end for it...

As effective of this date of the post... i will resign as the chief of drummers... and i will also stop performing and teaching... this marks the end of my journey in LitleGras Music...

This is really hard for me... but guess there's no choice...

Fellow drummers... sorry because i left you guys with all the responsibilities... now you all have to teach more frequently since i won't be there to teach anymore... the most difficult thing for me to let go is you all... apparently teaching has been the large part of the time i spent here in LitleGras... I'm very proud to have seen you guys grow from nothing till became a prominent drummer for LitleGras... It is really amazing... having u all is like having many children... KokChoy, Arthur, KokYou, YeiHan, EngChang, PengKer, KahChun, HuiMin, and HuiYien... seeing you all developed and keep improving is really of great satisfaction... I feel very lucky to have able to share my drumming experience with you guys... keep drumming though...

Forgive me on anything that i have done wrong... Really sorry to cause you all the troubles... Perhaps LitleGras will be a better club without my presence...

I will become an ordinary university student and will be sitting on audience seat and enjoy the concert you all bring to this USM Engineering Campus... Guess that is not a bad experience either...

是时候了吗？

啊！天啊！好累... 我要快乐！但快乐为何那么难寻觅？

我很容易不满发生在我身边的事。总是得不到满足。可能因为这样我得不到快乐。

我想我生病了。脑袋有问题了！

没多少人懂我在想些什么。想的东西太复杂了吧！

没多少人懂得如何跟我沟通。我的脸孔太纳闷了吧！

啊！天啊！太累了... 不值得呀！

为了它，我失去太多了！

每天都在付出，等待如愿以偿的一天。

它到底会出现吗？

又有多少人能跟着我的步伐和我一起走呢？

要停止这一切吗？

当没有人懂得珍惜你的时候，留下还有何意义？

还是做回一个不闻不问的鼓手比较好？

最近，很少去想小草颂的事情了。开始觉得没有必要了。觉得不值得了。有点想离开小草颂的感觉了。

小草颂的每个小草们对我的印象，似乎都只是环绕着音乐和小草颂而已。我很想让大家更了解我。但是，我不懂应该从那儿开始。

曾经问过威勇，如果给五个字你形容我，那会是什么字呢？

他说 : “ambitious, hardworking, inferiority complex, quiet, mysterious”

他说他不曾看过我开怀大笑。那倒是说得很对。跟他玩音乐这样久了，他都不曾看过。那么对一些学弟学妹们，那更不用说了。我是个超闷的人！

可能是我没给机会你们更了解我。因为我都很少开口说起其它的话题。可能是我不懂得说笑话。可能我的笑话并不好笑，根本吸引不了你们。可能我的声音太沉闷了。可能因为我的表情太死板了。

我尝试靠近你们，说说你们类型的笑话。不知道为什么，就是没什么好笑。都是一些弄巧成拙的反效果。有够白痴！

其实我只想有一些人，能够在我没有谈到与小草颂有关的事情时候，也都能够专心听我说话。

其实我只想有一些朋友。

哈！多可悲啊！

家乡的死党们，好想念你们。